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[anastasiav]

"Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves."
-- Albert Einstein

So, I guess I started my annual end of winter "I'm so fat its repulsive, better go on a diet" thing today. Which, for me, means writing down every single thing I eat into a little notebook with calories and such-like. I hate it. It seems so food obsessive, and generally, well, generally weird, but it makes me pay attention to what I'm eating and that's what it needs to do.

The funny part is, of course, that I didn't get to be a fat girl because I eat in that stereotypical fat girl way. Heck, I can't even eat an entire pint of Ben & Jerry's at one sitting. While I don't eat like a bird either, I do eat good food in reasonable amounts. The biggest problem is that my life is structured around sitting in chairs, and since I hate hate hate anything having to do with exercise (which never, ever has left me feeling 'good' or 'energized' or any of those positive things people say it should make you feel -- it only ever leaves me feeling clammy and dirty and a little shaky), my only option is to cut back dramatically on what and how much I eat. Plus, of course, its very hard to go to the gym when you're working from 830 am until 10 pm -- living indoors always has to take priority over health, I'm afraid.

So I make notes in this stupid little book, trying to hit the goal of 900 - 1100 calories a day without getting to a point at the end of the night where I'm starving and give up and go into the kitchen and just start eating whatever I can find to eat. *sigh*

I'm going to hate this.

In other news, my long-awaited camera phone arrived on Saturday, and its actually a piece of crap. When held in the hand, it feels very much like a phone that you might get after you put fifty cents in a very large gumball machine. Its going back, and I've resigned myself to the fact that I'm going to need to drop some money on a not-free phone and do this right.

At Jon and Anne's housewarming on Saturday we played a very cool game called Betrayal at House on the Hill. Although I am a confessed board game junkie, its only the second game ever (after Carcassonne) that I had to run out and buy the day after I played it. Now I'm patiently waiting for the UPS guy to bring it to me. One great thing about this game is that all the players are playing cooperatively for a certain period of time, until The Haunting begins. Then, one random player becomes The Traitor and gets to play all the monsters and execute a plan for defeating the rest of the party.

Fruit of the Internets:

Twisted Valentine Poems
There is one in particular in there that makes me think of theresat, but I'll leave it to you to guess which one.

Q&A With Roger Ebert
[NY Times Link, Registration may be required]
At the risk of starting a meme, how would you answer the questions he answers?

Results of a survey done by R.O.B. Magazine and the London Financial Times to determine The World's Top 50 Corporate Logos (Introduction and 50-11) (10 - 1)

Comments

[goldsquare.livejournal.com]

The biggest problem is that my life is structured around sitting in chairs, and since I hate hate hate anything having to do with exercise (which never, ever has left me feeling 'good' or 'energized' or any of those positive things people say it should make you feel -- it only ever leaves me feeling clammy and dirty and a little shaky), my only option is to cut back dramatically on what and how much I eat.

I still remember when I started exercising. Bleah.

I'd always been a big believer that perspiration was a sign of imanent death - that only losers and fools exercised. It was sick.

You can imagine how little I enjoyed starting out an exercise program. I refused to leave the gym without showering, I kept wiping my forehead and face. I felt exhausted and shaky and awful whenever I exercised.

That goes away. It takes *weeks* of regular exercise to go away. And, eventually, there does come a moment of surprising well-being. I still remember mine - I finished an aerobics class, and found myself jogging into the locker room. "What? I'm jogging when I don't have to", I recall thinking.

My little vignettes may not change your attitude, but trust me - no one likes exercise when they first start. You just have to make yourself stick with it for at least 2 months.

[anastasiav.livejournal.com]

That goes away. It takes *weeks* of regular exercise to go away. And, eventually, there does come a moment of surprising well-being. I still remember mine - I finished an aerobics class, and found myself jogging into the locker room. "What? I'm jogging when I don't have to", I recall thinking.

I know that it goes away for other people. It has never gone away for me. When I was in college I had to (as part of a class, for credit) spend 45 minutes in aerobic exercise three days a week. Could be a bike, treadmill, dance class, stairs, didn't matter. After a solid (school) year of this -- spring and fall term -- I was in pretty good shape but the feeling never, ever went away. I do have a gym membership, and I did go regularly when I wasn't working a million hours a week, but -- same thing -- even after months and months and months that feeling ... that I'm all shaky and clammy and I feel sort of dizzy and bad feeling ... never, ever went away. It sucks and I hate it but it appears to just be the way I'm put together.

[goldsquare.livejournal.com]

even after months and months and months that feeling ... that I'm all shaky and clammy and I feel sort of dizzy and bad feeling ... never, ever went away. It sucks and I hate it but it appears to just be the way I'm put together.

Then you get low blood sugar when you exercise. At least, those are the symptoms you describe. I could be wrong.

I got that once. In bicycling it is called "bonking". I was riding the longest distance I had ever attempted (Arlington to North Chelmsford and back), and part-way home I had to stop and eat.

[anastasiav.livejournal.com]

Then you get low blood sugar when you exercise. At least, those are the symptoms you describe. I could be wrong.

That's what I've always thought too, but the nice doctor people say no. Who am I too argue? Plus, eating something doesn't seem to solve it. The only thing that seems to solve it is time. It takes me about an hour to feel normal and not-cranky again.

[goldsquare.livejournal.com]

Did the Doc test your blood sugar (or have you test it) during the period where you felt lousy?

Eating something is not so helpful, it takes a while for most calories to absorb. Try drinking something slightly sweetened during exercise, instead. Fruit juice, especially.

[cat9.livejournal.com]

Hmmm...I wish to learn of this boardgame, but it is verboten from work. Damn. I shall look at it at home.

The logo thing is nifty. I guess it shouldn't have been surprising that the vast majority of them instantly popped into my head upon reading the name...

Just for the record, that's exactly what I have to do to curb weight gain. I hate exercising. There is no joy. And my face gets all red and then generally the asthma kicks in. Screw that. If I had a dog, I would walk it. Other then that? Not so much.

Hey!

[tracytris.livejournal.com]

I'm always available to diet / exercise geek :) aim=tracytris

i seriously reccomend fitday.com it is a great resource for food tracking. 900 - 1100 calories is too low for you! You should prolly be somewhere around 1400 ;)
If you have a pda - also look up a program called vivonics... beats the hell out of a little notebook :)

A caveat about fitday - ignore their idea of what you burn in a day.

Good luck, trying to lose weight sucks!